on a plane

so much is designed to take us out of the present moment

i am writing this as i am flying back from nyc to phoenix

the seatback screens with continuous rolling ads driving me mad

i've turned mine off

surprised they let you do that

everyone around me watching ads for 5 hours like i'm wall-e 

traveling solo to new york was a great decision

i've found it incredibly important to distance myself from my 'regular environment' from time to time in order to gain perspective

essential.

a big struggle of mine this year has been trying to find the value in school

i've been pursuing a business degree at asu

was in balls deep in academia up until this year

honors college, 4.0, deans list, wah wah wah doesnt matter really

as someone who is spirited, has a vision, and strives for excellence in everything they do

biz school is a joke

i would say all schooling, but that is not true

people who build buildings and bridges and perform surgery need to know what they're doing

but for anything besides a specific trade...

it is all designed to distract humanity from experiencing the feeling of connectivity to the divine and each other

to make us feel as if living our truths, as a collective, isn't enough

in college, a constant influx of meaningless tasks takes place of self discovery

people are losing themselves thinking they've found themselves

but are too naive to realize that they now fit snugly into the role they've been programmed to take on for society

the college example is the funniest to me

people will surely have some good times in college in between the stream of numbing assignments and general bullshit

activities vary (partying, networking, etc.)

those moments are memorable bc they allow one to feel connected and present

the funny thing is, pursuing an authentic life true to yourself would likely allow one to feel connected and present much more than school allows one to, because there is no bullshit in the way

people are so quick to place attachment to these feelings of happiness, and often attribute them to their environment rather than recognizing that the feeling they crave is internal fulfillment thru presence

this is why you find kids become obsessed with their schools' brand, because they feel the need to attribute their happiness to something other than themself

without them knowing, they have now become spokespeople for maintaining the twisted power dynamics of the modern world

buying mascot clothes, giving free tours, teaching free classes "for involvement"

theyre using you

to make money

for their gain

and keep people trapped

they do not give a shit about u

u are now a bot

a society who recognizes this power, enabled thru presence, cannot be forced into a state of control

which is why the narrative to fit into society, is pushed so heavily

if people were to wake up, the world as we know it would be flipped on its head

but for now, it is up to us to recognize and awaken as many possible to this truth

so one day our children do not have to feel crazy for wanting to live the life they truly want